Do you ever just have those weeks where you just want to quit and give up? Cause For me that week is this week.
I have class. I love most of my classes and most of my professors, but I don’t particularly care for one of my profs. He just kinda rubs me the wrong way. He can be insulting and demeaning, annoying, rude, and he is practically a dinosaur. But I do like that he tries to make jokes, even though he is the only one that laughs. And I appreciate his faith in God, he shares the Gospel in some way or another in every class session. But even with all that he is the kind of person you either like or don’t. I don’t, but I’m trying.
I have a job. I have a job off campus. I have a job off campus that I love. Most days anyways. This week, its been a little hard to love, with difficult and challenging customers adding to my stress, I am really having a hard time liking it this week. But I just keep telling myself “Just push through. One more week. God is faithful. I can do all things.” This is becoming my mantra this week.
On top of work and class, I try (not very successfully) to have and maintain a social life. I am a social person. I like to think of myself as a very precise mixture of an introvert and an extrovert. I am mostly extroverted, but there are days (like one day a month) that I enjoy being alone snuggled up with a book, or watching action movies or chick-flicks. I haven’t had my “me” day in a while, and that might be why I am feeling so crazy and drained. I have barley had time for my friends this week too and that drives me nuts! I need them as support and encouragement. I WILL go crazy (or crazier than normal) without them. They mean the world to me.
I also have had the conviction this weeks that I have been neglecting my family back home in the Greater Houston Area. I don’t talk to them much, and it’s mostly my fault that I don’t talk to them. I stay busy, but when I have down times I just choose not to call them. I have absolutely no clue what is going on in their lives, aside from what I read on Facebook.
My encouragement this week: A special little flower elf left me a surprise tonight when I got home from work! Made my night! Also I am encouraged that in exactly one week I get to go home and see my family in person! 😀 Its a true blessing. But also hymns, scripture, prayer, and driving around have truly been a major help.
Hymns and songs that I seek comfort in:
- Old Rugged Cross
- How Great Thou Art
- Amazing Grace
- Temporary Home
- Nothing But the Blood
- Give Me Jesus
Scripture that I seek comfort in:
- Philippians 4:13
- James 1:1-4
- Isaiah 41:10
- Matthew 11:28-30
Oddly enough, I find a so much comfort in driving. I drive with no destination in mind, and try to stay within 20 minutes of school in case something happens, but I just drive all over. And I know its a waste of gas, but it gives me time off campus, and time to think. I drive and I sing worship songs and reflect on Scripture, and most importantly, I pray.
I think I would like to share what I am learning about God’s character as I study through the Bible, and I will start with God’s faithfulness. But I will wait until my next post. Thank you for allowing me the chance to pour out my life and my stress. 🙂
Until next time,